I'm at school...

on my laptop in the Orchestra room. Hollah!

xmas List if it's not too late already
-usb flash drive
-a study in the house
-new webcam and microphone
-cardigan

off again

I'm flying to California at 5:20. My cousin is getting married (the family says finally.) S'all good though, we're welcoming the 2nd Jew[ish doctor.] Ballin' chiropractically!

Things I expect to encounter in my 4th?5th? Visit:

Food-
1. In-n-Out burgers and fries (if you haven't had this, you haven't had anything yet...though those Ramley burgers sound like they're just as delicious)

2. Pinkberry- the addicting "non fat" dessert (there are girls out there that religiously eat these as meals.) Or maybe they'll have Red Mango.

3. Korean barbeque - piles upon piles of meat, and some octupus, with the family. Can't forget the kimchi too.

4. Starbucks - the bride to be and her mother love the caramel latte. I go for the cream fraps.

5. Greasy filipino breakfast (ilocano longanisa and spam anyone?) - or maybe not....I believe my aunt is on a more healthier diet for her heart. But you can't deny the occasion when relatives come over!

Shopping;

1. My favorite street, Melrose. Vintage finds, sneaker shops, and independent street brands all on the same block.

2. Bape LA - my little cousin (rocking the stas at 10 yrs as if it's nothing) would probably look forward to this most.

3. Little Tokyo - I'm not sure if I'll have time to make a stop here, but I love buying the small vinyl toys and phone charms there.

Events-

1. The wedding - seeing everyone, dancing, maybe drinking if I'm sly enough ;]

2. Meals with the relatives - and I don't have to pay a thing!

3. Having told that they don't like my hair or that I got fat....haha always happens

4. Being asked if my mom or I have a boyfriend. Typical.

5. A lot of gossip. Runs in the blood.

6. Conflict between other members. But in the end we're still a pamily.

Alright, now I am in the plane (Virgin America Airlines.) The interior sems 'hip.' Whatever, I'm going to Cali baby! Peace snitchessssss

LIFE

Well, what's new? My hair is much shorter now. From summer to fall, there have been two transitions:

older hair:



old hair (more dramatic layers):


and NEW hair =O :



okay I'll post more some other time. toodles!

Off to Maine. Im not in the best attitude at the moment; idk why I'm so grumpy :/ hopefully it'll be a good trip but who the hell goes to Maine?!

back from Spain

Interesting place.
Lotsa people.
Old people.
And young people with piercings.
Seafood and lemons.
Secondhand smoke.
REBAJAS.
Life.

You know how I do

May:


Gotta work on the hand movements -_-

so far

Chemistry - 86
World history - 97
Math b - 95
Italian - tbd

Mann there's so much competition in my class. I wonder if I can pull through and be in the top 10, maybe even top 5. I just gotta do my best next year.

summer

Summer's gonna be mad chill. Right now I'm on my new sk lx (which I so lavishly pimped out) just eating some pakwan and listening to my zen outside my house. Kissed by a rose by seal is on right now but I'll switch it soon...there we go. Kim and kevin are on the way to eat some of my food too lol. So yea I've got my italian regents left, then I'm off to the philippines and japan. Hopefully I can get my summer hw done in time. Yeaaaa.

me = prom

at the library, bored. I like these pictures.

my recent dream

Forgetting to do my homework, I slept on piles of paper and woke up to a nightmare. I dreamed that I was a wizard and was able to perform the Lumos spell, except it had a fuschia colored spark rather than a green one. There was a little girl who found this out and wanted to learn, but I wasn't supposed to teach her.

I was running through a rather nice house, similar in the interior to Tricia's mother's house, and reached outside where there was a wooden staircase leading to the upper story. I decided to hide lying down under the stairs, however, it was open and you can easily see where I was through the openings as you climbed it. The little girl decided to start ascending the stairs, where she saw me, and thus she came to me and I didn't know what to do. That wasn't important anymore because a bunch of people entered the house and I was antisocial and didn't want to be around them.

Soon, intruders entered the house, and as I was sleeping I could feel the sense of something bad going to happen. I ended up in a parking lot of a small mall on a rainy day. Other people including myself decided to stay in a large glass box that served as a bus stop for shelter. Then, I saw a gunman approaching. My friend Kurtney was also in the vicinity, but out of the glass box. He was casually walking towards the box with strangers and Francis, even though the gunman was there. I was telling him with panic to hurry up but he only slightly quickened his pace. He did make it to the glass shelter safely. I asked Francis how he was doing, but he seemed to be really traumatized about a recent event. He was holding a little black book and was incessantly reading it, mentioning how he was raped by a man. I asked him if what he was reading was real, but Kurtney hushed me.

Somehow we all rush into an SUV. Eventually the gunman comes closer to the vehicle and points his machine gun at me. He starts shooting inside the car and some people get shot, I try to duck but I feel like I had a slower reaction. I feel like I was shot twice, but they are bullets of air. I manage to get out of the car and run to a Thai restaurant which is a few yards in front of the car. A waitress is cleaning inside, and we close the entrance with an old fashioned key. We are about to open the door for the rest of the people, but the gunman is outside too so we don't. The people run to the side of the restaurant, and I think the window there is open and they're going to come through, but it isn't. A simple bow and arrow is hanging on it, and they take it and start using it against the gunman. I slowly gain consciousness and wake up from the dream.


It was frightening to think that I had a nightmare like that. I haven't had a nightmare in a while, let alone dream. I felt a part of mass killings and it was pretty realistic. I am very scared to ever be in a situation like what happened in Rwanda and I hope this never happens to anyone, and myself. But, sadly it does occur and there are people that aren't so fortunate who fall victim to such violence.

 Once again, I find myself in the same situation. One week's worth of vacation has ended, and alas, I must return to school. My homework is patiently waiting for me to complete my task of finishing it. I've got the school blues, nothing new. But somehow, I hang in there. I can't lose faith in myself right now, I've come so far. I will survive. I just need that optimistic attitude. But oh, how hard it is! I have the horrible tendency of "all play, no work." Bad, bad me.

Hmmm what have I accomplished during vacation?

-playing video games, ohhh boy it's been a while. Only played about three songs on GH3 though. I need to redeem my talent. One day...

-Ate barbeque....thrice! My favorite are the burgers.

-enjoyed Red Mango twice. I met Felipe, an alumnus from my school. He now lives 'round there and currently works there. He said he'd 'hook' me up, all I had to do was bring my friends. Verrrry cool.

strawberries, raspberries, mochi = mmm delicious!

-Hung out with my youth group friends outside our meetings. It was fun.

-Did another photoshoot with Adrianne. Her theme was 'Secret Garden'. She wants a part two in my backyard since we utilized my friend's yard, and she lives on the corner of the street, so cars were visible in the background.

I still don't find myself to be a very good model. And, I need to lose weight >.<. The little gnome? is rather droll in the back, don't you think? Posing is kind of hard too. So is keeping a serious face without looking dreadful.

Well, I oughta do my work now.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start.

As the days grow longer, and the weather gets warmer, I realize I'm running out of time. There's only so much I can do before your departure. I don't want to say goodbye. Not right now. Never.

And it breaks my heart to think about it...

ahh the wonders of graffiti

so as I have said in my previoius entry, life has been sweet. New experiences, new memories, new everything. I'm much more happier this year than last year, but I'm much more tired this year too -_-. Well in less than two hours, Easter will be here, and I can once again return to my beloved Xanga :D! That also means that I have Sunday and Monday to finish all my homework, all of which I did not successfully start or finish. Darn procrastination. I'll write more another time, I oughta clean around the house, another one of my endless tasks. Oh wells. Happy Easter everyone! :]

2008.

Life is sweet.

Boston part 1

HAH I'm a genius!




the shrimp was huge! and very good. Bubble tea wasn't that bad either.



and yay for snow!

byeeee

I'm going off to Boston for the weekend with my mom and her friends to help out with a religious retreat that is being held there. We're also going to sight see and eat lobster `crosses fingers. Shopping would nice nice toooo.

I'll miss you!

update

NAIMUN XLV 2008 was okay. I didn't have nearly as much fun as I should have, but it happens. This was due to the lack of self-confidence and a pessimistic attitude. I also placed too much pressure on myself which did not help. Alas, I didn't win again but there's always next time . . . if my father permits it. Each time I compete in a conference, experience is gained and I know what I ought to do next time. Congratulations to Avani and Mathew, Devi and Zita, Christina and Kim, and Winston and Funlola for being recognized!

I thought this was incredibly cute:




and found this to be very strange. . .




I wish I was as talented as other folks on creating masterpieces using the Graffiti application on Facebook.

2.14.08

The NAIMUN conference started, had the first committee session last night. It's different. I'm trying really hard with my partner Alyssa, and I hope our efforts show. Also, I found out some nice stuff yesterday :). Don't miss me too much!

I'm happily dancing through life.

this is why I'm not going into the culinary arts

Happy birthday twinnie, I hope you have an awesome one!

and I know he's gonna hate me for this, but this is what you get for refusing to make eye contact with the camera, and for avoiding it in the first place :P

Today is Ash Wednesday,

and the start of Lent. I've no idea what to give up. I guess I'll give up Xanga. . . . and to not be gluttonous. Some added extras are to tackle homework immediately (which I'm breaking right now) and to give five hugs a day. That sounds like a good plan.

anyway, this month seems like it will be quite an interesting one. I can't wait, very excited. Looks like I'm blooming as a person. It looks bright from here. :)

Busy times, but sure is interesting! =D

Upcoming events:
NAIMUN conference 2/13 - 2/17
School break 2/18 - 2/24
Les Miserables 3/7 - 3/8

and for holiday cheer,

It's the time of the season
When the love runs high
In this time, give it to me easy
And let me try
With pleasured hands

To take you and the sun to
Promised lands
To show you every one
It's the time of the season for loving

My goodness, to think that I'd be quoting lyrics from a song. Lyrics. Seriously, I find that tacky. But now look at me. I'm ridiculous. But you gotta love the zombies.



hmmm I wonder why the left side of my face is all jagged ;D

I'm seriously crushing. But as of now, it's a 60% infatuation. That's still alot. . . man.

I have the greasy VICKS VapoRub on my forehead and neck, a Ricola coughdrop in my mouth, and a peeling french manicure. Half pint water bottles stare at me from many angles, while I stare at the computer screen, not wanting to do my homework. Well, I took the time out of my busy and stressful life to say the following:

My name is Clarissa and I and a beautiful person. A pretty face, decent shape, intelligent, intellectual, diverse, wise, humble, and understanding one.

I am currently working on my self-esteem. I am working on many things. Have a good day.

sweet sixteen

So I had my sweet sixteen on the 25th. It happened very quickly, and overall I was quite content with it, despite the many things that could have been better.














I received many gifts, most of them money...which will be going right to the bank. and thanks to my dad, I now have this!



woot!

I do not feel sixteen. Rather, I still feel fifteen. A tired and worried student that dreams of whatever is beyond what lies ahead.



and I'll put this picture in too because I think it's nice.

1.22.08

at 12 am, I was with two friends at home singing karaoke coming from a dinner date. We were going to watch Vitus, but it failed to grasp our attention due to the late time and the different language. We also enjoyed some green tea, and were on the phone with my other friend, who waited until 12 to wish my a happy birthday, although she needed to take a test later that day, which she wasn't prepared for (aww...I insisted that she sleep -_-').

So in that span of time, I burped about three times, committing the offense of which I promised not to do when I turn sixteen and "become a lady", and that is burping. My friends left, and I slept, coughing through the night and inhaling Vicks due to a nasal drip .

Woke up around 9 because my mom kept calling home, and went on the internet. Repeatedly played Sun and Moon and Movie of my Mind by Lea Salonga from the musical Miss Saigon on Imeem. Drank some green tea and took medicine.

My friend from last night took me to school (I am most definitely a loser) so I could finish my art project. Was craving dollar fries and so my friend and I powerwalked to the fish market and got some. She treated me despite my protests T_T.

Then, I went to musical rehearsals, and had the director insult me, saying that my acting is horrible, and that I am not portraying my character as what she's supposed to be haha. Then she realized it was my birthday and said I was doing a great job. I know I'm doing horribly, but it's hard...she also complained about my absences from rehearsal, and that it is impairing my performance, which is sooo not my fault because I'm in so many activities.

Went to the doctor's to check out my sickness, found out that it's only a drip, and not I have to find my nasal spray somewhere in the rummages of my room. Went back to musical rehearsals.

When that was done, I went to the city in St. Marks and browsed in the stores for a tiny bit. Ate Japanese food with my parents, uncle, and second cousin. Bought and ate some stuff from the bakery across the street.

Went back home, and went on the internet again, only to find that about 40 people wished my happy birthday on facebook O_O . Arranged the seating of my peers for my sweet sixteen, watched some videos of Charice Pempengco, and now I'm here :] .

But this day is incomplete........no cake . oh well, too sick anyway.

whoops two days left. I think these are absolutely beautiful. I'm still sick with a cold and cough :(. Hopefully I'll get better soon. I'm going on a dinner date tomorrow :D!

sooo

I cannot wait for my birthday! ^.^ 4 days!!!
On Martin Luther King Jr. Day, I'm am going on a dinner date with four other people. And I can order whatever I wish, since Francis is paying for me :D omgazzz food!
I'll eat out again on my birthday, just not sure where...
I'm happy there's no school until Friday!!!
So yeah Francis had this whole secret plan set up, which he told everyone that attended the SADD meeting this morning. Which I don't know about. Well in phase one, he took all my belongings from my locker, and placed it in his locker. He also switched the locks too, leaving a note saying that I have to go to his. Then, he posted a note at the door of my Italian class, saying that I was not allowed to leave the room that period (Fifth).
Second phase, Francis gift-wrapped my locker (which I still cannot get into), and made a sign allowing people to sign if they loved me :D. So my friends signed it, and some other random people <.< , thanks to Francis' advertisement of telling everyone he knew.
Third phase is unknown yet, but it's gonna be surprising indeed. But I know that it will be in my locker, and a little birdy gave me the hint 'enjoying sweets'
Can't wait!
Can't wait for my party too!....which I'm not ready for. . . damn candle decisions -_-'

Can't wait...to linedance! :D






And you can't wait til I stop burping ;D
I love my friends.

not the ugg train but...

the blogspot train! Well, I've had this google account for almost a year, but yeah whatever. anyhoo I'm supposed to be doing my homework, but I'll just quickly sum up my day so far
-musical rehearsal
-chamer orch rehearsal
-banana leaf
-pinkberry
-my hizouse

last three were with brian and adrianne
currently playing my guitar hero II
ms.booby's going to help clean my room :D...well after we both finish what we have to do...
so yeah my birthday's in ten days, not ready, can't wait.
you'll miss my burping!
okay til' next time.